-- renege. / ANEWSTART ;

20050129

Ladeedaaa.

Whee, tag-board.com is back! <3 So yeah, I switched back to it. Also changed the video. Hmm.

Today was quite fun lah in madrasah. Now it's mixed, meaning guys + girls. I like my ustazah, she's so funny and nice, haha.

Other than that, I have nothing to do. Add me or smth lah: insatiablexx@hotmail.com k.

♥ Zahidah

20050128

wAkAkAKAkKkakAZzzz!

yay! omgggg i love me! zaza is a beautiful asshole. she likes to silat with me. she likes cheese anddd bananas! yay! we silat together gether rite? you are the shit :) yayyy

LiKE OmG YoU aR e The HolY Hole!
Lyk WhAtEVA!

EEEWWW.

kay lah kay bye!
~nadirah hacking zaza's stooopid account

♥ Zahidah

20050126

Oh what a fucking fuckity day.

I think I wanna type in malay + little english. So here goes my fucking assholed post.

babi sak diorang. ingat diorang tu saper ah? rajer? puteri? pegi mampos sua. aku mcm nak maki2 sak kat depan muker diorang. orang nyer pasal ah nak buat aper kitorg suker. sebok jer. dah belah tu, buat kejer belah jer lah. ugh. korang mampos kitorg tak heran ah. muker happy lagi ade. harap2 korang kene accident ke, ape2 lah. merepek mcm taik apek ah. fuck fuck fuck. JUST PEGI JALAN AH. blah sua.

saket ah badan aku. esp my left hand. abeh letih jer. ish aku ni mcm regretting pulak seh.

newae, tgh burn kan cd for my fren lah abeh comp aku giler sak. pegi hang pulak. ughhhh. abeh skarang cd tu dah rosak. mcm mane ni!!! hari ni kan betol ah mcm babi. aku nyer blog byk vulgarities seh. BUT TAKE NOTE: I DON'T GIVE FUCKING DAMN WHO READ THIS. THIS IS MY RIGHT. i just hate some people to death.

dapat lcp nyer rank and safety first badge today. and im like "WADEVA" skarang.

♥ Zahidah

20050125

Loving Even week Tuesdays.

Hah. So relaxing. I mean the periods I had for today. HML, EL, CS, LEGACY, Art. No stupid maths and science. Whee.

Had the 2nd Buddy Training too. Quite boring ah considering Mrs Ho and the PSLs gave us a talk on how to handle the buddy sessions etc. Quite nervous about it lah.

Tomorrow there's NP. Ugh, full-u. How troublesome. -_- And I don't like some people cos they keep bitching about us. Go to hell ah.

♥ Zahidah

20050123

Blogging on a Sunday night.

You know, going out with your mums is boring, right? Right. My mum asked me to accompany her lah to TM/CS and just window-shop. Ate at Long John Silver's (wakakakakz. MY FAV FAST FOOD RESTAURANT <3). Continued window-shopping. I hate it when my mum just browsed and browsed at the bags and shoes. So that's when I went home by myself. Hah.

Anyways, why the fish won't tag-board.com work?! Fish ah. Aiyohz. I'm so damn freaking bored since yesterday. I NEED NEW FRIENDS!!! Not that I don't like my current friends lah, but you know, just to fill my boredom. I think I'm going to check out alamak.com. Hopefully no mats and minahs chatting. -_-

Pssttt... sms me anyone? :O So bored. Hmm.

♥ Zahidah

20050122

Gahhh.

OMGZ PEOPLEZ I NEED NEW FRIENDS *GASPGASPGASP*
kay. that's really random, huh.
anyways, I FREAKING BORED.
msn won't work.
fuck. ugh.
hmmm *thinks*
i'll tell you my hp no.
but NO ABUSING OF IT KAY?
shhh. it's 911 77 3 9 7.
combine it. wakakaz.
SMS ME LAH AIYOHZ.
so bored sia.

♥ Zahidah

Ahhhh i'm so bored.

Went to madrasah today but it was closed. Ugh. What a waste of energy sia. Kay anyways, I'm pretty much feeling really bored today so... I WANT TO CHAT. Well yeah. Add me insatiablexx@hotmail.com. Somebody recommend any good chat rooms or something? How boring. So yeah, talk to me lah.

Currently listening to Alicia Keys' Karma. Mhmmkay.

♥ Zahidah

20050121

Selamat Hari Raya Haji!

Hey you guys,

I wanna wish you a very Happy Hari Raya Aidiladha! Have fun beribadah-ing. I'm off to my relatives' house. Tata.

(Realised that my previous post was too vulgar. Shall cover it up... soon.)

♥ Zahidah

20050120

Fuck to all the people I hate.

Something to rant about.

Seen my title? Well, um, duh. And to all those fucking teachers and school mates (doesn't matter if you're a senior or junior or whatever shit), just fuck off. You people are just assholes. Well, of course, this only applies to some fucking people. The rest, I'm glad to say I love you. Heh. If you "terase", well then too bad, too sad.

Maths can go to hell. No, not the subject, but the fucking person who helps us to "learn". Yes, lots of people officially hate her now. Don't you realise that humans aren't perfect? And don't think that you're that fucking clever, fucking good, just fucking perfect. I bet you left your other side of your brain in hell. Why don't you just die? I'll be very much happy for you. Once I find your weakness, I'll blow you up. Just you watch.

Hah. I seem really harsh huh. Who the fuck gives a fucking damn shit. I'm just mad. Mad, mad, mad. Angry.

To the good side of me, I love all of you who has help me in many ways and being patient with me all the time. You people make me feel welcome, of course. Mmmkay. Stay that way and don't ever be fuckers. :) <3

Enough of my emotions.

PS: I'll be opening an online portfolio to showcase my artwork soon. Wheee. It's located at artlove.blogspot.com. So many things to do, so little time.

♥ Zahidah

New ICs.

Kay so I didn't have time to blog about yesterday so I blog todayabout yesterday lor. Had the parade with our new ICs - M F and M CT. Since I was in CSP, I got to miss PT lah. Wheeee. The CSP dikir barat thingy was lame but then again, quite fun lah. After all that shit, went for NP. Had to change full-u for drills. How troublesome. Shall not elobarate more cos I'm too lazy. Heh.

Now, I'm in Comp Lab 1 during recess... so boring siak.

♥ Zahidah

20050118

Sec 2 Buddy Training

I think I'm doomed for the rest of the year. Yes. History CA today sucked.

Anyways, had the peer support buddy training today. Buddies sound lame. Seriously. Rai didn't come, don't know why, so it's only me, Aisha, Flora and Isabella from 2e9. Got grouped into Sadrius Hip (HOW PATHETIC) with Hajjar, Quraisah, Amanda - all from 2e7 - and all the peer buddies from my class. Played these fun games. Wheee, guess we really did have fun.

Then we had talk about the characteristics about a leader and what not. Blah. Boring.

And NOW, I'm burning another CD for Khai. I'm like her CD-burner or something ... heh.

Fuck I'm still in the process of polishing my stupid NPCC boots and my mom is helping me sew the formation sign. How fucking ironic. We have to bring the full-u tomorrow, together with pt-kit, 1.5litre if water bottle each and lecture staff. Ugh. I don't think I have enough sleep everyday and I'll be sooo damn tired after school. -_- So sad right.

♥ Zahidah

20050117

Damn it. History CA tomorrow.

Ugh damndamndamn. I think I'm doomed. Tomorrow there's History CA and here I am burning CDs for Khai. -_- Fuckeranos. (HAHAHA I'm copying some Sec 1's quate... kwang kwang kwang.)

I think I need a new bestfriend. Someone who's not from TKGS.

OMG LIONS WON. WOOOOOHOOOOOO.

♥ Zahidah

20050116

Yes, I'm bored.

Fuck my MSN. It won't work. So now I have to use MSN Web Messenger. How pathetic. Anyways, add me on insatiablexx@hotmail.com if you want to chat or anything... I'm just so damn bored. (And oh, I so hope that my bro doesn't find my blog or else he would complained to my parents of how many curses I said. Wtf. -_-) I want to chat ah ppl. Talk talk talk. So boring sak.

And I want to learn how to cook but I have no freaking idea how to. :( So sad right. Ew, there's nothing on TV too and I'm all alone at home.

HOW FREAKING BORING.

♥ Zahidah

20050115

CCA Day for the Sec 1s

Whatever. Today was the CCA Day for the Sec 1s and I was in M Tahirah's group - Survival Cooking. Soooo damn glad that I got out of Drills section, haha. Not that I hate lah but it's troublesome right. So. The people in my group are M Tahirah, M Junaidah, M Syazana, Melissa, Xin Xuan and Yi Wen. Cooked stuff for the damn Sec 1s. Huh. They're like "I WANT MAGGI!!!" but I doubt they want to join. :| I think some of the Sec 1s suck. Just like what M Naz said. And Sec 1s SHOULDN'T BULLY SENIORS. What the fuck sia. Saw some blardy Sec 1s bullying M Diyanah. Ugh. Go to hell with them.

Anyways, me and people went to TM after school. And holy fishes! So many people but Taufik's album sia. And wtf I forgot to bring the receipt so I couldn't get my album. That's why I'm going now. Wheeeeeee! *is blessed*

♥ Zahidah

20050113

I am so damn SORRY Sab!!!! :(

I feel terrible. Very terrible. :( Sabrina's wallet is lost... all because of me, Aisha and Ezza. Inside there's her GIRO-paid EZ-link card and lots of money of the squad. K I shall described what happened...

Today the Drills section people were supposed to have their drills and the rest of the squad complete the souvenirs. Us three planned to go to Tanjong Katong Complex lah to buy artificial leaves for the cinnamon thingies so we collected money from those who have. Sab asked Ezza to keep her wallet. So we went out of school, but then I thought I was thirsty so I went into Day & Night and bought a drink lah. We came out and then waited for bus 135/76 but without realising, we accidentally left Sab's wallet on the bus stop bench when we saw the bus coming. Only when we reached Singapore Post, we realised that it's gone. :( Then I started to panic badly. Ezza and Aisha too. Went back to Day & Night to find the lost wallet but it was gone. Wtf. Who took it sia?! Went back to school looking scared so the Sec 4s asked us lah what happened. Told them with much hesitation lah. Haiz. Then the rest of the squad came back and Ezza and Aisha started crying (plus laughing a little). My eyes were dry that time so couldn't produce tears... yet. Everyone was like "Don't cry lahhh". Somehow, I started crying badly when I saw Sab crying because her EZ-link and wallet were lost. Due to the fact that me, Aisha and Ezza couldn't stand like almost the whole unit watching us, we went to level 3 and hid besides the band room and cried and cried. Of course lah, so terrible sia. And we were too scared that Sab's gonna get scoldings by her parents. :( Our crying was quite weird sia... it's like crying badly and laughing also. Yeah. After quite a time sitting there, decided to go back to the prefects' den (right?) and helped with the other souvenirs while Quraisah and Hajjar went to TKC with their own money which they chipped in and bought the leaves for like about... 10 bucks?

Only god knows how we felt. In conclusion, today sucks badly. UGH.

Anyways, I had to go home fast for mengaji so I went home with Bahiah. Oh yeah, I've just gotten to know that there's a new NPCC rule: TUCK IN YOUR NP TEE AND BRING FULL U FOTR EVERY PARDADE. WTF. This is another FUCKING horrible news. :( *cries* I hate bringing full uniform, it's SO TROUBLESOME. I wonder who the fucking hell made this fucking stupid ass rule. Kay, I FEEL BAD, you know. FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK. Can curse till forever ah.

PS. SABRINA, I'M TRULY TRULY TRULY SORRY. :( Cant apologise enough. Feeling too damn guilty sia. :(

♥ Zahidah

20050112

First parade of 2005.

Oh em gee, my legs are still aching from the parade we had today sia. Ugh, now NPCC parades are on every wednesy from 2pm to 5pm. I still prefer Saturdays seh. But anyhoo, after we were dismissed from lessons at 12pm, we like just slack ah. Thought of going to Parkway but then somehow, blah blah blah, we just decided to eat in the canteen. Hahah. *acts like khai* How ironic is that. So yeah fall in at 2, did the attendance and shit. First there was P.T. I so freaking hate it sia... C.T., in my opinions, is SO much better, heh. We had to run and run and run and shit ah. Then I had an asthma attack. Wtf. Every time it's like that. So yeah, fall out and took a reast while others continued with their P.T.

Then it was drills. Haha, sooooo fun, though it's tiring lah. And whaddahell, I kept messing up my timing with my drills. Ugh. Learned a new drill today. Wheee. Ezaa, Sab, and Jas K. were feeling unwell... poor them. :( After that there was squad interaction. Niceee. Funny to think that in Sec 1, we don't really talk that well to our ICs, probably because we thought that everyone looked down on us, but anyway, it was really interesting, heh. Shall not tell you details due to my laziness.

Finally it was the Unit Activity. Pretty relaxing. We had sing-a-long session. So we sang the NP songs and stuff ah. Then we were dismissed. My legs were still shivering and they still are now. The muscles ah. Aiyohz. Heh.

♥ Zahidah

20050111

Whutz a day!

Hah I think every Tuesday of the Even week is like the best days! First there's only 2 heavy subjects - eng and malay - which in my opinion is not hard at all. Then after that, it's just CS, recess, legacy and art! Wheeeee. So basically today is the day where we slack lah. Everyone said I'm too semangat in making the art folio -_- Hahahs. But I love art mah. What to do.

So... there's NP for the people who were selected to be in the drills section for UG Promotion Day this Saturday. Did some cool drills. Funnnn, except that we Sec 2s look like bdk sesat maner ntah. Haha. But unfortunately some seniors saw some of the stupid posters we made and just laughed like that. I was like wtf seh. But good thing ler I didn't make any posters, wakakakakaz. Then, somehow, M T went to us and asked for someone to go in her Cooking section. Then blah blah blah, I got in, haha. I think it's better than drills (not that i hate drills) because if you're in the drills, you'll have to bring the FULL NP uniform... which is a huge troublesome for me, heh. That's why I volunteered lah and I was realeased one hour early. Met Ezza at the canteen with the stupid souvenirs we did. We waited for like an hour till the rest were dismissed.

Anyways, took the bus 31 to go home. Our clique was like the damn loudest in the bus sia. Haha. Even the VS guys didn't talk loudly seh, but I just found out that they are like nerdy types, probably Sec 1s, hahahahs. So. There was this upper sec malay VS guy who sat in front of us alone and I didn't he was eavesdropping at our stupid and lous conversations hich consists of like youngsters these days and whatever shit ah. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Pretty lame if you ask me, but it was cool, haha, cos it was like a debate or something.

OH OM GEE I KEPT SINING "PULANGKAN" THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE DAY!!! GO ZAZA!!! Wakakakakakaz. :D

And then blah blah blah, I need to go to sleep now. Night.

♥ Zahidah

20050110

~~Zombieee!~~ Pulangkan...

I added the music (with buttons). Yay. ~~My current favourite song though it's a really old one. Haha. Zombie by The Cranberries.~~OMG I LOVE MISHA OMAR'S PULANGKAN!!!!!

Artis : MISHA OMAR
Lagu : Pulangkan (Soundtrack Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam)

Lagu : Ajai
Lirik : Habsah Hassan & Shuhaimi Baba

Seharum bunga yang menggoda
Sekadar dipandang usah dipuja
Kau pasti tak percaya
Kasih ku bukan,
Untuk mu, sayang

Tiada ku sangka kau sungguh kejam
Kau rampas segalanya yang kau dendam
Namun takkan bahgia kehidupan mu
Bila bunyi bersatu
Kau milik ku

Korus:

Misha : Pulangkan cinta hati ku
Ezad : Oh hentikan lah menghantui ku
Misha : Pulangkan oh pulangkan lah pada ku
Ezad: Ku pulangkan kesan hidup mu
Misha: Yang dikau musnah tanpa relaku
Ezad : Bebaskanlah maafkan daku, oh kasih

Tiada kemaafan di sini
Kau ragut degupan hati ku ini
Akan ku jejakimu, kemana jua
Hingga akhir masa, sayang.....
------------------------------------

Anyways.
We started out today with Maths periods as the first period. Though I don't think anyone in 2e9 likes Mrs T, it was quite okay. We had Sci after that and wheee Mr Ho is like the selenge-st teacher I ever met. Haha. He's really a weird guy yet never fail to amuse us without him even realising, heh. Then it was Lit. Stupid CD-Roms not working. After recess was History, and oh em gee, it's pretty obvious that the class is so not responsive, heh. I'm like trying to answer all the questions Mrs Yeo asked, haha. Then finally it was Home Ec. We made Lemon Barley drink. It was ok lah but too sour for my taste so I couldn't finish it. Had the freaking CSP after school. Blah bkah blah I'm quitting it soon, I hope. After the school hours, the active sec 2 NP cadets stayed back to continue with the stupid sec 1 souvenirs, heh.

That's pretty all that happened today. Boring. Entertain me. Talking about that, I feel like chatting in a chat room. Suggest me a room where there are teens but no mats and minahs? :) Heh.

EW WTF MY MSN IS NOT WORKING SIA! :O

♥ Zahidah

20050109

This goes on and off eh.

Hi. I think this is one of my worst habits. I mean I get active and blog and change layouts at the moment and the next moment the blog is dead. Alive, dead, alive, dead. Cool, huh? *sarcasm* Anyways, I got bought with the illustration layout I made so I thought this blog needed a change and ta-da, here come a lime green layout. Lime green = HOT COLOUR. Hahah. So what's up with me these days, huh. Well, I'm pretty busy with school now since school has started and yay, I'm a Sec 2. Haha, I'm so slow. There's pratically quite a number of changes in school so far, heh, for example our recess time. Now it's 10.20 to 11.05. Whee. Though the lower secs have to clear the canteen by 10.40 to let the upper secs have their recess. And yes, we have new teachers too. 2E9's FMs are Miss Ang and Mrs Loh. Miss Ang is like the sweetest teacher ever and Mrs Loh is totally the opposite. And most of us hate our Maths teacher. Like duhhh. She's so freaking ugh. And like she wants to tell the whole school how bad 2e9 is. Wtf. She doesn't know that her stupid attitude will scare students away and even those who're in need of help will be scared to approach her. Note to everyone: NOTHING IS PERFECT. So be that way and please don't expect 100% perfectness all the time.

Anyways, regarding the NPCC souvenirs for the Sec 1s CCA day. This time, I think our souvenirs are pretty awesome, not like before. And oh yeah, wtf is with MPP. She doesn't have to be like damn sucky, right. Too bad almost everyone hates her except her friends. We've put LOTS of efforts before (and LOTS of my mates never bother to help except the frequent ones) but she still criticised us like shit. Wtf. To all seniors, just becuse we're younger, it doesn't mean you guys have the right to look down at us or push us around.

Kay, I guess that's enough of ranting huh. Now to the not-bad news, I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY HANDS ON TAUFIK'S ALBUM!!! *screams* Paid $17.90 already at a Sembawang Music Store branch in CS during the school holidays. Now it's just the matter of date, haha. I'm really excited about this. Talking about Taufik Batisah, please visit Taufik-B.net which is made and set up by my online webdesigning friends and me, and show us the support. :)

Hmm what else is there to blog about? Currently my mind is blank, so yeah. This is all, I guess.

♥ Zahidah