-- renege. / ANEWSTART ;

20050329

I need more supplies of contact lenses!

AHHHHH. i have only like left one pair of new contact lenses for april. and i want to continue wearing them till forever. ugh. must beg my dad. must must must. don't want to wear specs ah. sheesh.

i don't think i'll ever get bored with muse. <333 muse = sex to the ears. :D

currently listening to muse - sing for absolution.

♥ Zahidah

Never diet.

okay. dieting NEVER works. trust me. well, not for me anyway. hah. i just couldn't resist the site of food - how tempting. haha. i need some control, man. sheesh.

went to school moody. because my dad won't hurry up and drive me to school early. and i hadn't completed the newspaper summary and opinions shit. so yeah. first period was higher malay. discussed about a debate topic. about casino lah. i'm in the "for" group. yay. and wtf i'm selected to be debater number 4. ugh. stupid drawing of lots. by the end of the period, managed to complete the newspaper summary thingy. so relieved sia. cos the next period was english. during english, we discussed more about the stupid "entrepreneurship" project. not that i'm against entreneurship lah. just that i was in no mood for it. so it's decided that my group's cafe name will be volcha. whee. hot name huh. haha. PE was okay. got confused lots of time with the line dancing sia. but finally i got it. i think so lah. heh. after recess was legacy. continued with playing with board games. and then it was art. had to sketch either a mask, sculpture or patchwork for our 3d project. chose mask. cos i was having ideas flowing all in my head. haha.

went to tampines mall after school with nad, khai, aisha, rai and bahiah. ate at long john silver's. nad and aisha practically had a fight with these upper sec temasekian couple. haha. screw them ah. don't ever think of cutting queues again k. heh. nad and aisha bought those white wristbands which are like the coolest trend now. wanted to buy one for myself but had no money. too bad. went to tampines regional library to return and borrow books. and now i've finished one thick book already. i'm moving one to another. whee. (: i'm a bookworm... i guess.

tomorrow there's np. wonder how it'll go...

♥ Zahidah

20050328

potato salad sucks!

man, i've just woke up from my nap. hah. it's 10.44pm and i'm still tired. -_-

school was okay. first period was history. luckily sia i never sleep. haha. next was legacy. whee fun. played nad's game. hilarious man. i think everyone did good. (: after that was literature. almost slept. but thanks to aisha i didn't. heh. math was erm dots. mrs lim is one old freaking lady who wore blue sades and think's she's gorgeous. why the hell have to wear shades in school? hot meh? got sun ah? hah. "i am very serious." "i am very strict." hahahaha. we don't to know your characteristics lah. (: home econ later. made potato salad. seriously, the dressing is so yuck sia. and we have to bandung by boiling sugar water? what the heck. and my group hasn't done like anything for anything. ugh. csp afterwards. was thinking of quitting one by one. haha. but i didn't ask for the withdrawal form. sheesh.

went to parkway parade's banquet to eat with aisha, nad and khai. i bought kway teow goreng but can't finish. heh. muak what.

i don't know what to say now.

and oh, our class banner is so nice! haha.

♥ Zahidah

20050327

hot local bands <333

http://www.purevolume.com/avacantaffair
http://www.purevolume.com/arpee
http://www.purevolume.com/auburnsepiphany

*goes searching for more*

edit: omg people you've got listen to this band. HAHAHAHAHA. i was laughing like mad. crazy version of avril lavigne sia. not local though.
http://www.purevolume.com/avrilskavigne
*dies laughing*

♥ Zahidah

i. need. to. chat.

was just talking to my friend about curses. haha. nothing to do lah. and how the word "sial" evolves. i dunno. there's sia, sial, siol, siak, sak. i've used all of them. -_- i'm so bad i know. but the most common ones that i used are sia and sak. heh.

damn it i stink lah. haven't bathe yet. whee. i want to chat. but don't know good chat rooms. i hate alamak.com - full of mats and minahs. yeah.

school's tomorrow. sheesh. still haven't done my fucked up homework. eh someone quit csp with me lah. i need to quit. i have to. csp sucks. especially the damned teacher. babi ah. haha.

so bored.

♥ Zahidah

20050326

banner thingy is cancelled.

so i was in the bus 291 on my way to fetch the banner people when li qin called that lots of people couldn't come and that the meeting is cancelled. i don't really mind though. anyway when i was in the bus, there was this old indian guys with a white turban talking all by himself. it's like he's talking to someone you couldn't see. how freaky is that. and that he laughed. man, people were all looking at him. when i reached tampines interchange, felt like walking around tampines mall but not much shops were opened cos it was only about 9am. went back to tampines interchange to take bus 291 again and allighted at tampines mart to buy the april issue of the lime magazine. spent about 4 hours sleeping at home. can't blame me, i only slept at 4am and woke up about 8am this morning. that's why i was quite sleepy.

anyway, went to madrasah. wore my brown long-sleeved top with brown long skirt and black scarf. haha. madrasah was okay. just realised today that 2 of the guys there were quite cute. um heh. just realised. -_-

after madrasah, basically did nothing much except for surfing the net till now. i'm so bored. i wanted to go to the sajak competition thingy at NUS but no tickets were left. sad i know. heard from ezza that TKGS won the best sajak. whee. go you guys. and the champion was st andrews. ugh i hate st andrew's. they just suck like hell. worse than st patrick's. don't ask me why. i have my own reasons.

i want revenge.

just browsed around purevolume.com to look for some singapore bands and man, most of them are shit sia. they were made of like, what? 14 - 17 year olds? sheesh. stupid wannabes. their voices suck. the songs were quite okay.

i think i need to change this layout. it's been up for too long now.

♥ Zahidah

20050325

Sheila On 7 - Pemuja Rahsia

Kuawali hariku dengan mendoakanmu
Agar kau selalu sehat dan bahagia disana
Sebelum kau melupakanku lebih jauh
Sebelum kau meninggalkanku lebih jauh

Ku tak pernah berharap kau kan merindukan keberadaanku,
yang menyedihkan ini
Kuhanya ingin bila kau melihatku kapan pun, dimanapun
Hatimu kan berkata seperti ini.

Pria ini lah yang jatuh hati padamu
Pria ini lah yang kan selalu memujamu
Aha.. yeah.. aha.. yeah
Begitu para rapper coba menghiburku

Aku lah orang yang selalu menaruh bunga
Dan menuliskan cinta diatas meja kerjamu
Aku lah orang yang kan selalu mengawasimu
Menikmati indahmu dari sisi gelapku

Dan biarkan aku jadi pemuja mu
Jangan pernah hiraukan, perasaan hatiku
Tenanglah tenang pujaan hatiku, Sayang
Aku takkan sampai hati bila menyentuhmu

Mungkin kau takkan pernah tahu
Betapa mudahnya kau untuk dikagumi
Mungkin kau takkan pernah sadar
Betapa mudahnya kau untuk dicintai

Aku lah orang yang akan selalu memujamu
Aku lah orang yang akan selalu mengintai mu
Aku lah orang yang akan selalu memujamu
Aku lah orang yang akan selalu mengintai mu

Karna hanya dengan perasaan rinduku
Yang dalam padamu, kupertahankan hidup
Maka hanya dengan jejak-jejak hatimu
Ada arti ku selusuri hidup ini

Selamanya hanya ku bisa memujamu
Selamanya hanya ku bisa merindukanmu

♥ Zahidah

happy good friday.

yes i still am fucking tired. don't know what's wrong. guess what? i'm sick of mosquitos. they're all over my room. how the hell did they get in my house in the first place? sheesh. it was never like this last time. and now i'm having semi-fever. and asthmatic coughs. man, it's not even 6 months since i last recovered and now i get it again? ugh. my head's hurting. and stupid mosquitos keep biting me. so itchy leh. go and die, damn mosquitos.

eh i need panadols! i love love love panadols. my favourite drug. (:

was too tired to blog yesterday so i shall type about it now. that is, if i can remember lah.

i keep sleeping in class. wtf. humilation. and mr ho was like "your science rep is sleeping in class" and the whole class roared with laughter. piss off. sheesh. i wasn't 100% sleeping lah toots. ugh. and assembly was fucking boring. dozed off. um, hello?? of cos i'd dozed off. mrs loke was talking about the tkgian spirit and what shit ah. we knew that right? don't have to fucking tell us about it again. no csp. yay. so did the class banner lah. it's turning out good, i hope. then i went to tampines regional library to return and borrow books. i seriously can't live without reading story books sia. -_-

i just watched this movie on channel 5 called "willow". so nice sia. although it's an old movie. can't wait to watch "sound of music later". heh. holidays = cool movies. (: yep.

♥ Zahidah

20050323

fucking tired -_-

man, what the hell is wrong with my freaking computer sia? it's just won't play any music and videos on the net. now i can't listen to perfect 10. sheesh. damn it lah.

i'm watching american idol now. bo bice is cool. yeah but i still like constantine. don't know why. and i miss mario :(

managed to come to school by 7 o'clock. whoo. go me. so i basically used the whole 30 minutes in school before morning assembly to finish up my english composition. haha. too lazy ah. eh, the entrepreneurship project is cool. wheee. my group's doing on a cafe. but why the fuck do we have to call people and stuff? sheesh. i find that quite pointless. it's not as if we're going to set up a real cafe. heh. science was damn boring. everyone knew i spelt through out the whole period (: i don't give a damn lah. haha. higher malay was fun though. got some new peribahasa notes and then we had game. and matahari won. whee. after recess, we basically completed our legacy project. so yah.

np was tiring. duh. circuit training first. i so fucking hate to be a casualty sia. :( people thinks i'm weak. i so wish i'm not. i don't wanna fall out and i tried to but i simply can't tahan lah. sigh. after ct was drills all the way till 5. was fun at first. each of us had to command the squad. till the bloody CI came. sheesh. go and spend staring at your new jc uniform lah, don't have to come to tkg right. but nevermind. shan't dwell about it much. and oh yeah, i hate some seniors. think they're so cool. but they're just so rude. what the hell lah.

went home in bus 31 with aisha, bahiah, sabrina and hajjar. just crapped around. and we saw sabrina's crush from vs. HAHAHAHAHA. a sec 3 but then so short. yeah. wanted to call out his name but then he was too far. so yeah. haha.

oh i seem to recognise lots of people i don't know whom i've seen their pics on friendster profiles ah. haha. cool right. (:

♥ Zahidah

20050322

bored like hell.

i don't want homework! ahhhhh. -_-

heh. school was lame today. we had this friday's timetable cos there's no school on this friday. just realised that there was a CA after recess. ugh. anyways, english was first period. thought we were gonna present our 2 minute talk but didn't. waste of my time preparing it last night sia. and sheesh we have a project. damn. but quite fun lah. it's an entrepreneurship project and that interests me. (: haha. maklumlah, aku ni kan nak jadi business woman. hopefully. *dreams* so yah. my group mates are fezra, syazana and brenda. wheee. after english was maths. miss della came to relief us. miss her man. why didn't we get her for art like last year? sigh. but it's okay. i don't really care actually. after maths period was boring history. i slept all the way. whoo. go me. english ca after recess. gonna die sia. so hard. art was boring. basically did nothing. and finally lit. also boring.

after school, me, aisha, raihan and daphne went to tampines neighbourhood 2 centre to visit daphne's aunty shop to interview her granny for history project but her granny was to scared to come so her aunty replaced her. but before that, ate at mac. haha. i miss mcdonald sia.

i don't wanna come to school. help. there's np tomorrow and i've not even pack my stuff. sheesh.

oh, my bro won 3rd in the school rugby tournament at damai primary. haha. congrats lah k adek.

♥ Zahidah

20050321

i farted!

HAHAHAHAHA. i farted so loud sia. luckily only nad, khai and aisha heard. hahahha so malu. my second time. lalalalala. then we laughhhhhh.

the end.

♥ Zahidah

1st day of Term 2.

just the first day of the new term and i'm already late. i mean, i came to school late by about 1 minute, where all the other tkgians have already stand in the yard for morning assembly. and there was i singing the national anthem and saying the pledge with one or two other tkgians by the main gate. heh. luckily, i didn't get booked. don't know why. haha.

anyways, started school with the new school timetable, meaning that music is the first period for mondays on odd weeks. everyone played their compositions with shaky hands, especially us non-mep students. haha. i think i did okay. could care less. after that was higher mother tongue period. got back my dialog writing. also did some mutiara kata. haha. bercakap selepas berfikir. remember that. (: during history, mrs yeo didn't come today (yay. such a relief. i didn't even do my homework.) so we discussed about our history newspaper.

then it was recess. sheesh. why the hell did they change the plans? now the lower sec students have to wait till 10.40am to eat at the canteen. and the damn upper sec won't leave early. so i didn't eat lah. went to comp lab 1 to do the home econ task analysis. man, i've not done my fucked up supermarket tour report sia. sigh.and i need to hand in tomorrow. joder.

science was hell boring. god, mr ho couldn't stop talking about puberty and stuff. i just went to sleep and he didn't even notice. haha. my classmates notice lah, of course, but who cares. (: we baked pizzas in home econ. i hate it but ate it anyway. haha. stupid recipe. my mother makes pizzas way nicer sia. heh.

thought of asking for the csp withdrawal form today but i forgot. anyways, we basically went through the holiday csp homework and i just sit there blankly without my paper because i didn't even do it. haha. i slacked so much sia. but who cares about stupid csp, my dad even ask me to drop the subject. wheee. my overall would be so much better without my csp marks. yeah.

nad, khai, and aisha went to my house after that to do aisha's artwork on photoshop on my computer and also nad and khai's legacy project. so we took mrt and then bus 291 to reach here. heh. alighted at tampines mart cos i wanted to buy ice cream. haha. then walked to my block and then to my flat. blah blah blah. aisha did her art assignment with my help and nad and khai did their so-called pochongs. haha. my mum prepared pratas for us all and zap, they're gone in matter on minutes. heh. guess we were hungry lah.

ahhhhhh damn it sia i've got so much homework to complete by tonight. help. help. HELPPPPPP. aku mampos sak.

♥ Zahidah

20050320

Just some pics by Rai's camera.

♥ Zahidah

McFly - All About You

It’s all about you, it’s all about you baby
It’s all about you, it’s all about you

Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew
So I told you with a smile
It’s all about you

Then you whispered in my ear and you told me to
Said you make my life worth while
It’s all about you

And I would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don’t know what I’d do

So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles it’s all about you
Yeah

(Guitar Solo)

And I would answer all your wishes if you asked me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses don’t know what I’d do

So hold me close and say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Yes you make my life worth while
So I told you with a smile

It’s all about you
It’s all about you, it’s all about you baby
It’s all about you, it’s all about you baby
It’s all about you, it’s all about you baby
It’s all about you, it’s all about you
It’s all about you.

♥ Zahidah

sunny sunday.

time i woke up: 1.30pm

haha. normal what. my parents and bro had gone to johor. i didn't want to go cos i wanted to sleep. heh. but now i cant have my favourite food. :( so sad. i miss mee hotplate from giant jb! sigh. so long never eat that sia.

so i watched this movie called american beauty last night. haha. i love it. shiok. i want to watch movies. but nothing interesting on tv right now. sigh. oh btw, me and nadiah might be going to watch miss congeniality 2 soon. wheeeee. can't wait. then we'll gossip about.. ehem. people. haha.

bored. prank call me. haha. you're welcome to do that. yeah.

um. what to doooooooo. pssst. 91177397. <--- see that? (:

♥ Zahidah

20050319

TKGS NPCC Annual Camp 2005 sucks.

alright people, time for to me to bitch again.

man, this year's camp sucks like bloody hell. hate it. i was a casualty most of the time. and this made me look weak. well i know i am weak lah. ugh.

didn't able to find solid fuels and dowel poles at all on thursday night. all the shops were closed. my dad was freaking pissed. blame the damn organizers lah.

my group consisted of m syafiqah, m sie hui, me, quraisah, valerie, shahirah and natassya. group ICs were m belinda and m nazurah. i love my group. we decided "elvis" for our group name since the camp theme this year was zenith or something which basically means something. duhh. i forgot. heh.

hate pt. hate the 4 hour walk. i hate basically everything lah. ct sucks like hell. campwalk was boring. but we got to see the euphorian maams. and they were like being sarcastic to m k the whole time. HAHAHAH. amek kau. padan muker. hah. everyone except her most of squaddies hate her, i bet. nightwalk was so not scary. and the sec 1s were screaming. sheesh. and wtf, sentary (sp?) duty was lame. i don't see the point of it. and fire drill in the middle of the night? that's so stupid. can't you see everyone is damn fucking exhausted? and we still have another day. ugh. i snored sia when i sleep. hahah. too tired and in pain mah. oh by the way, i farted. HAHAHAH. everyone heard. i'm not embarassed lah cos i don't give a damn. anyway, during the fire drill, i had a breakdown cos i couldn't take it anyone. my hand are in so much pain. muscle cramps. so being a typical girl, i just automatically started crying. sheesh. so m tahirah massaged my arms with oil. luckily got her sia. and my whole fucking body was aching.

on the 2nd day, i was a casualty most of the time. didn't go for pt cos if i do, i'd surely be the last one. i hate running. you know i failed my last year's 2.4km run damn many times. i almost gave up. till my class comforted and convinced me to give a last try after 134641021434 re-takes. yes i'm that bad. had takwondo (sp?) after breakfast. i hate it. i love last year's dragonboat! why on earth did they choose takwondo? choose silat lah. ish. after lunch it was basically punishments. wtf. we were told that we slacked a lot. just what the fuck. slack? you fucking heads ah. we were aching the whole time and they say we slack? goddamnit. suckers. and for the second time, my arms couldn't take it anymore. like the previous day. like last year. sheesh. so the NCOs decided that i'm sick and shouldn't participate anymore. which makes me glad. even though people recognised me as a weakness, i don't give a damn. :)

i so hate this particular person. what an insentive jerk sia. hope you do badly in your Os in a few months time. can't wait for you to be gone. hate you so much. mean ass. go to hell ah.

basically, i spent the whole time resting. my head was giddy. and my arms were swollen. i just realise there's a lump in each of my arm -_- scary sia. and pain.

the only good point about this year's camp is that we muslims get to pray. yeah.

anyways, in conclusion, this year's camp is just pissing me off. fucking hate it. especially the organizers. sheesh. read khai's blog. heh.

man, we have to do a 2 page report on this camp? wtf. meaning that i have to be polite in the report. and no bitching. ugh.

after camp is over, i'm so moody sia. slept the whole time at home. i miss sleeping. hah.

right now i'm in no mood to blog about today. so yeah.

♥ Zahidah

20050316

going crazy...

going to beach road with ezza later. need to buy 10 dowel powels and 10 boxes of solid fuel. sheesh. please let the army shops be open! -_- oh must buy twine for myself, aisha and khai. gee sometimes i wonder why i'm so nice. heh. desperate times. must help one another lah. wahahah.

and tomorrow, i can't wear my contacts. ahhhhhhh. i mean, AHHHHH. must wear specs.

gotta pack bag. see you on friday.

♥ Zahidah

inter-class cheerleading competition 2005 - over. (:

so today was the day. hah. the sec 3s this year weren't as good as the sec 3s last year. seriously. but still, 3e1 is the best. like last year too. 3e5 last year was also good. too bad the this year's 3e5 back out. sheesh. so far out of all the sec 3s class i've watched, i loved 3e1's, 3e7's and 3e9's cheerleading. heh. as for the sec 2s, i guess we were okay lah. glad to have the competition over. the sec 1s... wow, seriously, they're so soft man. i think last year's batch of sec 1s were better. and that's us lah. haha i think i might be bias. but whatever. anyway, the results will be announced when the new term starts. could care less. yeah.

oh, yeah, nice skirts people. 2e5's skirts very creative, but i like their performance better last year. and man, our cheer is the same as theirs sia. sheesh. 3e2 also. ugh. this is what happens when you get cheers from the net. sigh. whatever though. (:

after cheerleading, went to day and night to eat. and basically hang out. aisha's group did their csp project - the video in which you have to interview someone in chinese. so they choose that nice aunty at day and night. haha was actually quite funny. i don't know when my group will work on our video presentation. hmm.

went to look for solid fuel after that. huda and rai accompanied me to the army shop nearby evps and jyps. but no luck, the shop is closed. wtf. today isn't a holiday. grr. so tonight, i'm asking my dad to bring me to the army shop at beach road to buy 10 boxes of solid fuel for the whole squad and also twine. and other stuff which are needed for tomorrow's camp. -_-

speaking of camp, i haven't pack a single thing for it sia. so lazy. i'm just feeling neutral - neither excited nor nervous. i really hope that there's no physical training tomorrow. i can die lah. and hopefully the camp won't be much of a tortue but most slightly, it will. ugh.

anyways, me, rai and huda went to tampines mall after knowing the shop is closed. bumped into syikin, musfirah and azrina. so we all hanged out together lah. haha. then separated cos me, rai and huda wanted to go to long john silver's. well, actually it was me. haha. poor huda, she couldn't eat anything except stuff like porridge cos she just had braces. so yeah. don't worry, 3 weeks' going to be really fast. heh.

im bored. and kinda not looking forward to tomorrow. haha.

♥ Zahidah

20050315

it's all about youuuuuu.

god im addicted to mcfly <3

but anyways. i'm bored. need to do so damn many things tomorrow sia. -_- buy solid fuel for the whole squad. must collect money by tomorrow. so sianz ah.

I NEED TO CALL MY OLD FRIENDS. sheeesh. k bye. haha.

♥ Zahidah

last cheerleading practice.

wahahahah. sec 1s are um... kay nevermind. i just read some of their blogs. hah. cute lah. but eh, some of them has bfs already? -_- too young lah you kids. sheesh. and i dislike some of them. yeah.

anyways! last cheerleading practice today. came to school with nad. YANTI! WHERE ARE YOU? kau slalu tak datang seh. ish. tomorrow is the competition, you know. oh well. frankly, i don't really like my cheerleading routine. heh. i think i got discouraged by some of the sec 3s. i still remember last year's competition, all the sec 1s are damn lame. haha. memories eh. k remember to bring a blck tee and your oh-so-long cheerleading skirts. hahaha. :)

brought my primary 4 journal and showed to everyone just now. all had a good laugh. i've come to realise that my english sucked so bad in p4. hahaha. maybe i'll use that for the 2 minute talk? hmm. maybe i'll bring all my sketchbooks and talk about my drawings? most probably, that's what i'll do when the new term starts. don't want to be last year - talked about HTML and webdesigning. hah. and miss lau gave me a C cos she doesn't understand anything about it. sheesh. :|

decided not to go to east cost park to collect sand cos we managed to collect 3 bottles of sand in school. haha. at the swings area. so yah, don't have to waste time to go to the beach.

i think this year's annual camp will suck. badly. hope not though.

went to tampines regional library alone after cheerleading cos i need to return and borrow books. gee, i've just been reading and reading these past few days. my hobby lah. what to do. haha.

um, i haven't pack my camp stuff. ugh. what the hell, we need to get solid fuel by ourselves?? i thought the PA provides them. and we need twine? and sand? man, this is all wtfies. and this year, we were told that our ICs are all "mysterious". and they've got a "mysterious" activity for us. sheesh. nampak sangatkan sec 4s blom plan betol2. there's no dragonboat or naything like that this year. ugh. *cringes*

i have to do all my holiday homework by tomorrow. ahhhhh. HELP.

♥ Zahidah

20050314

Brian McFaden & Delta Goodrem - Almost Here

Brian: Did I hear you right?
'Cos i thought you said,
Lets think it over.
You have been my life,
And I never planned,
Growing old without you.

Shadows bleeding through the light,
Where the love once shined so bright,
Came without a reason.
Don't let go on us tonight,
Love's not always black and white,
Why haven't I always loved you?

Delta:
And when I need you
You're almost here
And I know thats,
Not enough.
And when I'm with you,
I'm close to tears,
'Cos you're only almost here.

Brian:
I would change the world,
If I had a chance,
Oh won't you let me.
Treat me like a child,
Throw your arms around me,
Oh please protect me.

Both: Bruised and battered by your words,
Dazed and shattered now it hurts.

Brian: Oh havent I always loved you?

Delta: And when I need you
You're almost here
And I know thats,
Not enough.
And when I'm with you,
I'm close to tears,
'Cos you're only almost here.

Delta: Oooh oh

Both: Bruised and battered by your words,
Dazed and shattered now it hurts

Brian: Haven't I always loved you?

Delta: But when i need you,
You're almost here

Brian: Well I never knew how far behind I left you

Delta: And when I hold you,
You're almost here

Brian: Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted

Both: And now I'm with you,
I'm close to tears

Brian: 'Cos I know I'm almost here.

Both: Only almost here
---
such a romatic song. *tearteartear* <3 heh.

♥ Zahidah

legacy project is done~

"American Idol" Top 12 finalist MARIO VAZQUEZ has withdrawn from the competition for personal reasons, FOX announced Sunday. Semi-finalist NIKKO SMITH, 22, who was eliminated last week, will be replacing him. Smith was chosen because he received a higher number of votes than competitor TRAVIS TUCKER. Twenty-seven-year-old Vazquez was told by SIMON COWELL during the semi-finals, "You have a charm about you. There are better singers, but you have a lot going for you."

NOOOOOOO. THIS CAN'T BE. NO NO NO. I WANT MARIO. HE WAS ONE OF MY FAVOURITES. WHY ON EARTH MUST HE WITHDRAW?! AHHHHHHHHHH. I'M SO DAMN SAD. ):

I LOVE MARIO!!!!

*sighs*

oh well. there's nothing i could do. so yah. :(

anyways. my group - aisha, nadhirah, me and fadhilah - finished our legacy project! wheee. fast huh? haha. tell you guys about today.

went to tampines interchange to meet aisha at about 1pm but aisha hasn't even reached bedok mrt station. -_- sheesh. and nadhirah just came back from johor. so i went to tampines library. saw my ex-crush, wahahah. i don't know why but i think he's so not cute right now. so kental. kinda. and then i saw marissa, farah syirin and syikin. haha. the 2e3 people. found out that they're doing their history project... which reminds me when the hell is my group going to even START on it? i'm so freaking busy this week. huh. while waiting for aisha and fad to arrive, met verina! hahaha. my ex-junior.. now a sec 1 in loyang sec. so chatted with her for a while. then aisha arrived. and finally fad. after that, us three went to the popular book store at tm lah to buy the stuff we needed. then met nadhirah back at tampines interchange and went to my house. :)

my mom prepared spaghetti for us. yummy.

fad finished her art poster with the help of me. haha. now i have to help with aisha's. yeah.

so that's it. tomorrow there's cheerleading practice, remember k people? 8.30am in school void deck. have to practice hard.

AHHHH I WANT MARIO!!!!

♥ Zahidah

20050313

busy week from tomorrow :|

i want to see my old friends. miss them terribly. but due to my stupid schedule this march holiday, i can't go out with them. whatever. man i'm so damn freaking busy this week sia. cheearleading competition is on thie wednesday and hell, my class hasn't even finish our cheerleading. sheesh. that's why we're practicing damn hard tomorrow and tuesday. sigh. luckily all the skirts are ready seh. kalau tak mampos sak.

eh i'm obsessed with quite a number of songs ah!!! haha yah.

obssession by frankie j
almost here by delta goodrem and brian mcfaden
it's all about you by mcfly
breathe in by lucie silvas
he wasn't by avril lavigne
ransom letter by pug jelly

and lots more lah.

gee, my stomach is having problems since just now. damn ah. ugh.

so. did basically nothing today. really bored right now. i don't mind having people prank-calling on me or something. ahhh. just so bored. sheesh.

what to do. what to do. what to do.

wheee my mom just bought a pair of gold high heels which cost for 10 bucks only. i like <3 so much. gonna wear it on special occasions. haha. duh.

♥ Zahidah

20050312

I give 4 out of 5 for Lemony Snicket's ASoUE :D

asoue was awesome! watched that today at plaza singapura. it was suppose to be a class bonding thing but only like, what, 13 people came? hah. so much for class bonding. but whatever. li qin booked the tickets yesterday so it's easy for us lah. if we were to buy the tickets on that day, fat chance of getting them, man. haha. i love sunny, klaus and violet. smartass kids. heh.

anyway after the movie, most of us roamed around orchard road. if only i'm one rich kid, i'd buy anything i wanted. so expensive sia - especially the branded stuff. nothing i or my family could afford. window-shopping got me excited at firstbut after a while, i got bored. with expensive stuff which i know i couldn't afford. and the orchard crowd. so decided to go home lah. by the time i reached tampines, it was like 6.20pm or something. but i had to go to the library to return books. and also borrow books. haha.

oh, tkgs npcc cadets, i've received the annual camp list. in case any of you read my blog or something, here's the list:
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Camp kit list:

1) 4 school-based t-shirts (pt shirt, PE shirt, Ignitez shirt. No class t-shirt are allowed)

2) 3 pairs of long pants/slacks/track pants ( black or dark blue with no stripes)

3) 3 pairs of white socks ( school/normal white socks)

4) 1 poncho (labeled)

5) Undergarments

6) Utensils: fork, spoon, plastic mug, can opener etc (labeled)

7) Toiletries: toothbrush, toothpaste, etc

8) 1 Bath towel

9) 1 face towel

10) Sanitation item

11) Talcum powder (optional)

12) 1 whistle with twine

13) 1 torchlight with new batteries

14) 1 1.5L water bottle (with water)

15) 1 ball of twine

16) Spectacles hook (black)

17) EZ-Link card

18) Plastic bags

19) Slippers (optional)

20) Windbreakers/sweaters (optional)

21) Solid fuel

22) Cash of not more than $10

23) Medication (if any)

Notes:

1) No cadets are to wear contact lenses throughout the whole camp. Only spectacles are allowed

2) Cadets who bring their medication are to label their medication clearly

3) Cadets are reminded to put their EZ-Link card and keys into their wallets

4) Cadets are not allowed to wear any jewellery unless for religious purposes

5) Unallowed items will be confiscated.

Things not to bring:

1) Electronic items (handphone, discman, walkman etc)

2) Pillows, bolster, stuff toys etc

3) Cash that are more than $10

*Anything, please contact your respective squad ICs. Please bring your consent form if have not and your SANDS. Thank You!
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there. you can go pack your bags now. hah.

♥ Zahidah

20050311

npcc service day 2005.

in the morning, i almost didn't go to school but felt that i had to cos of npcc service day today and many things to settle on. vomitted during breakfast time and was like shivering like hell. :| my parents insisted that i shouldn't go to school but being who i am, i was stubborn. :) haha. anyways, reached there just in time with my legs and hands shivering...

wheee i love science! hahaha. sexual reproduction chapter 12. mr ho blushes everytime sia especially when he talks about the reproduction of a female. so today we talk about penis and vagina. man i sound gross sia. haha. but the whole class was like giggling and giggling. fun.

maths - oh god. tell me about it. -_- i have no freaking clue on silmutaneus (sp?) equations since i was absent yesterday. so it's like freaking hard sia. i hate maths. i swear i do. but i'm trying to best to improve lah... well, hopefully, heh.

higher malay was fun. did our skits on legenda-legenda melayu. so my group - me, fad, huda, fezra, hamiza (and yanti, but she's absent today ): ) - did on batu belah batu bertangkup and then won third. yay. nad's group (on badang) got second and wahidah's group (on bawang merah bawang putih) got first. congrats, guys. you people were great. yep. <3

oh oh oh english was fun also. nad, your two-min talk gerek seh. fad also. hamiza also. haha. my turn is next term and i so don't know what to talk about. sheesh. *sighs* history was bloody boring and so is literature. i shall not eloborate more on that. haha.

and, we got our term 1 progress report today. wtf. i only scored A2 in visuak arts and the rest i get Bs and Cs and 1 F9 for damn csp. man, i'm so going to quit. i have to. if not my overall will continue dropping. ugh. and my current overall average is less than the overall cohort average. like always. so no sursprise there. but still, i freakingly need to buck up! pray for me please.

soooooooo. for the main news of the day! npcc service day! i tell you, it's totally lame and boring. my group - m diyanah, m fatin, me and shahirah (sec 1) - went to the whole of blk 12 with 25 stories in the marine parade are and no one AT ALL is free. wtf. be supporting lah, singaporeans. sheesh. last year's service day was so much better sia. seriously. well, anyway, my parents picked me, fad, aisha, khai and sab up and dropped them at bedok interchange except for fad and me lah. dropped fad at tampines and mart. then my parents and i went to kfc to eat cheese fries. haha. so many east spring npcc and ncc people sia. heh.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR ANNUAL CAMP. wheee. but i'm so not looking forward to PT. *sighs* oh well.

♥ Zahidah

20050310

on mc.

i didn't come to school today. i'm sick. my asthmatic coughs became worse. and i couldn't sleep last night. so in the morning, my mom brought me to universal clinic. man, i've not been sick for like 1 year? wow so long. anyways, the doctor prescribed some medicines. i hate them but i need to get well. so yeah.

spent the whole day sleeping. my body is feeling damn lethargic.

tomorrow there's npcc service day, meaning i have to bring my full-u tomorrow. ugh. so little time so much to do.

i hate asthma.

♥ Zahidah

20050309

cough + asthma = DEATH

my chest is in pain. seriously. i've been coughing and coughing and couldn't breathe easily most of the time. and i took damn lots of doses of the ventolin inhaler sia. i know i know, it could kill me cos it's a drug and i'm like "abusing" it every half hour. but what the hell could i do? i feel calm for a few seconds after taking it. hah. guess it's not really worth it.

my chest and back seriously hurts so much! :( ughhhhhhh.

today was the last peer buddy session with 1e9. *teartear* it's party time, baby! though it's sorta lame, i find that it's pretty fun. haha. gonna miss being PSBs to the sec 1s. (oh, mannn, they're such a chaos sia but... (: )

anyways, no matter how much i constantly coughed and was in pain, i still attended today's parade. heh. so m tahirah, m zakiah and m farhana took over our squad. hmm. they commanded very softly so that's why khai couldn't hear and therefore, she couldn't say the timing loudly. yeah. but it's okay lah. we pretty much slacked today. haha. quite fun actually, besides feeling sick.

man my chest pains sucks. it's hurting so much right now. ughhhh. my back also. damn asthma. :(

by the way, new song people! wheee. peter pan rocks <3

♥ Zahidah

20050308

future subjects?

EL
HMT
EM
AM
BIO
CHEM
CH(SS/LIT) or (SS/HIST)
HIST or LIT

i think i want these subjects to be my Secondary 3 subjects next year. heh. and if they offer art, i'll take it up as well. but most probably, there's going to be no art in tkgs. :(

*sighs*

♥ Zahidah

crapity crapity crap!

oh man. now i'm coughing like mad. actually, i coughed like mad throughout the whole of today. stupid sore throat which leads to stupid coughs which leads to stupid asthma. took damn a lot of puffs from the ventolin inhaler sia. like two puff an hour. serious lah. otherwise, i can't breathe. :| how sad. i don't wish to have asthma. ahhhh. ugh. oh well.

well, let's put that aside. besides coughing non-stop all-day, today was fun. very crappy! haha. plus, it's a tuesday even week which means there's only 2 heavy subjects and the rest of the periods are slacking subjects. haha. higher malay period was first. had to sing. haha. i quite like that song "gubahan" by siti nurhaliza and 2by2. but damn jiwang sia. fezra sings too good! heh. for english period, we basically did some grammar revisions. after that is computer studies! this is like the best moment where we just crap and crap since it's a free period. so apparently, we tagged at ezza and her boyfriend's (they still deny it *shakes head*) blogs and became sweeper lah, whatever shit ah. love is the air, baby! wooohooo. don't deny lah ezza, we so can tell.

had a peer buddy meeting during recess with miss hamidah regarding the peer buddy finale session which is tomorrow. yay, party, baby! but damn, i haven't buy anything at all. sheesh. i hope the 1e9-ers bought them already. our party location is going to be at the student activity corner. sigh. hopefully, we, PSBs, weill get our 3 CIP hours! haha. not that we really care lah, but it'd be great if we do get. so, the party should be a success tomorrow. haha. so fun.

legacy and art was lame.

oh oh oh GUESS WHAT. there's no need to bring full-u tomorrow! wheeeeeee. m chuanting and m fatimah won't be takling over the sec 2 squad cos they have promotion test. good luck. and we're going to be taken over by m tahirah. yay. this so makes someone happy sia. ehem. haha.

i'm in a good mood! no pms today :D haha. righttt.

♥ Zahidah

20050307

i hate hypocrites.

warning to seniors. i know lots of people read my blog but has never tag or something but anyway, be prepared for my bloody rants. and please, this is my bloody blog, i can blog whatever shit i want. so if you're like, hate me or something, i pretty much suggest you go and close this shitty blog, kay.
...

i detest hypocrites. fucking hypocrites. why talk about our so-called mistakes and never talk about yours? this is pathetic. and unfair. sometimes i dislike seniors. or even juniors. well this apparently applies to some only. especially in this cca called np. hah.

so basically some junior gets permission from some seniors to not call them begining with "maam" and can mix with them secretly. note the word: secretly. but don't think we don't know your stupid secrets lah. yet, they say that we mix with the damn juniors when they're the one who came to us. actually, it's just a junior. but still. i wish i could have told any of the juniors not to join np during their cca promotion day because of this one pathetic reason. "there should be gap between juniors and seniors". hah. like as if we still get respect. whatever. dudes, wtf, it's only a matter of a few years. i rather greet a teacher than a senior. and even teachers are more friendly than those arrogant seniors. screw them. dickheads. i still remember my primary school form teacher who treats me and my friends like his friends but we still had respect for him. seniors are so damn over.

AND FOR GOODNESS SAKE. don't roll your yes at us. makes us want to roll our yes back at you people more lah. sheesh. damn it.

sometimes i hate np. well only sometimes though. hah. the rest of the time, np rocks. yeah baby.

5 disadvantages of NPCC (especially in TKGS):
- you have to greet "maam" to every senior (not that i mind though)
- you can't be friendly to seniors or juniors because of the word RESPECT (wtf, but no, i don't want to be friednly with them anyways bluek :)
- seniors look down on juniors
- physical training
- getting scolded a lot

6 advantages of NPCC:
- drills
- outdoor activities such as camps and etc
- discipline
- learn life skills and etc
- unit activity? :O (depends lah)
- greatest FRIENDS :D

anyways. maths CA was shitty. i'd probably failed... maybe about less than 10 upon 30. hah. and i don't give a fucking damn.

sorry, i curse too much. everyday, everywhere. especially when i'm ticked off. wtf-ever.

alah aku tak suker ah ppl bace aku nyer blog seh. how to make this blog private ah? hehehhe.

♥ Zahidah

20050306

maths ca tomorrow. oh god.

i simply suck at organising myself. hah yes i do. well that's not surprising huh. look at my table in the classroom and you can see how messy it is. whatever. the fact is i don't really care.

i still haven't even started on my homework. damn it. there's home econ supermarket tour report to be written, home econ IAP task analysis, history worksheet on chapter 4 and etc. plus. there's a maths CA tomorrow. man. i'm soo in trouble. i don't know why but i just can't seem to get my butt off and get to work. i hate school. really. well, not really. hah i don't know and i don't wish to know.

do you know that some local bands are pretty cool? :O i never knew they existed till an online friends of mine introduced me to some bands. they're good. i would never have support singapore local bands till just now. haha. they need publicity. yeah.

anyways, did basically nothing today. i just lazed around watching tv, reading and surfing the net when i know i should be doing my homework but who the hell cares. i usually do them lateeee at night. yes, i'm like that, if you don't know.

ohh guess what! my sore throat is going away. but. my asthma's here and that's why i can't breathe easily and kept coughing. wtf. that always happen when i have fever/sore throat. ugh. asthma sucks. big time.

did i tell you that annual npcc camp is going to be in the march holidays? man i never expected it to be so damn early. 17 to 18 march 2005. sheesh. i bet this year's camp is going to be boring with the tortures and all. but i'm kinda excited. haha. do i sound like a hypocrite or what. whatever. and atc is going to be on 3 - 5 june 2005. wheeee! ezza wants to see the vs guys and aisha wants to see her BG. haha. that'll be interesting.

so that's all for today eh. i'm going to draw. haha. i know, i know i should be doing my homework, but i'm so tempted to draw. just for the hell of it. (:

♥ Zahidah

20050305

periods suck! :O

my forehead is hot. i mean hotter than the previous days. my sore throat won't go away! i've been like this for, like, 1 week? :O this is seriously pathetic.

and to make it worse, there was cheerleading today and of course being it it means you have to shout, right? i tried not to shout so much but i got carried away.

*shrugs*

my mom had finished making 8 cheerleading skirts - pink with black sections. they turned out okay i guess. so only 4 more to go. the cloths alone cost 20 bucks and my mom is charging everyone 3 dollars for each skirt. that okay with you guys? hope so. so yeah you can pay me like next week or something. no rush though. (:

we managed to complete about 2/3 of our whole cheerleading routine and stuff, i think. it's turning out pretty good! :D yeah even though the beginning of the cheer isn't really good, in my opinions. heh. but i shouldn't complain eh. haha. by the way, we saw the sec 1s npcc-ians from other schools. aisha, khai and me were like "QUICK HIDE!! THEY'LL SEE US." or something. haha. and yeah they did see us. our seniors, i mean. i totally have no idea whether m dee will punish us or whatever. we don't care lah. it's a saturday, and everyone knows it's not the day for cca. -_- and you can't blame us for not coming cos most of us have plans already. whatever.

anyways, me, aisha, nad, nadh, huda, syaz, vicki and shilbe went to parkway and ate at kfc, as usual. i had banditto pocket and by the time most of us finished eating, i was bloated. hah. that's exaggerated lah. like duh. after that, we went to find that wrist band in all the sports shop but failed to find anything. oh well.

oh people, guess what? damn it i skipped madrasah. ughh. can't believe it. was already in my madrasah clothes and then sudden;y something happened. i fall asleep on my bed. what the hell. so i woke at 4 and was like panicking. my brother should have wake me up! ugh. i want to go to madrsahhhh because next week, i won't be going cos of the class bonding thingy. and you can't expect me to skip madrasah everyweek. anyhow, i went back to sleep cos i was feeling bloody lethargic. blame my period! periods suck. so i continued sleeping till night. -_- hmmph.

i loveeeeee loveeeeeee loveeeeee indonesian bands! wheeee.

♥ Zahidah

20050304

~~wtfwtfwtwtfwtfwtf :O~~

seriously. me and khai and going crazyyyy asking everyone if they can come for the stupid swearing-in tomorrow. fuck ah. sial. then only like 6 ppl manage to go and we niners have already planned the cheerleading a damn long time ago and now they say we're going to get punishment if they see us tomorrow in school? seriously ah just what the fuckkkkk. me, khai and aisha are freaking pissed sia.

YESH HELLY FUCKING FREAKING PISSED. :O

ugh. damn it.

how the hell to relax sia? haizzz.

k forget it. -_-

♥ Zahidah

Something's wrong...

bleh ppl, i'm bloody freaking tired. and feeling sick. even though it's only a sore throat. and i'm quiet. waddahell sia. i feel like i have lupus. no, no, no way lah. stupid brain. my neck hurts so much. all because of stupid gym lah during P.E. felt like almost fainting when i was doing my routine. my body feels hot. ughh. I WANNA BE WELL. ever since i got soaked last sat because of all the rain, i've just been feeling sick and down ah. wtf. funny thing was, when i'm happy, my sickness will, like, disappear and when i'm not, it'll come back. what the freaking hell is happening? my head is hurting right now. so is my throat. :( haiz.

my period came today. maybe that's why i'm moody. huh. pms? maybe. but not like miss ann. hah.

after school, went to vjc to support aisha in the heats. eh i like the vjc's building. it's quite big and i thought it was small last time -_- haha. i love the canteen! so nice. and the stuff there is so cheap sia. anyways, aisha came in first the first 400m but at last she got 6th. it's still a good position though :) man, if i were to be participating in that, i'd soooo came in last. for real. heh.

congrats to those who scored well in A levels, yeah? :)

oh btw ppl, i'm thinking of moving back to livejournal so that i can have private entries. heh. probably about rants and stuff. i'm too afraid to say it here in a public blog. hmm. so yeah, i might move. and i'll make a blog for blogger skins or smth. maybe. :)

♥ Zahidah

20050303

wadever.

confirmed there's something wrong with me. bleh. i dunno. maybe i should go to the doctor... but nah. i feel sick. can't be cos of depression right. oh well who the hell cares.

and i dislike some people. yeah. go to hell ah.

failed my 2nd csp test. ugh again. wtf. right now im really confused whether i should drop the subject or not. damn it. joder. (btw, joder is spanish for fuck - just found it in a book, hah)

anyways, it raineddddd. that's why the sport day heats at vjc was postponed till next week. haiz. and rain = makes me sick. sick as in headache and stuff lah. ughh.

legacy today was interesting. haha yah.

haiz ppl, notice that when i'm not in a good mood, i don't elaborate much, huh? yeah. wadever lah.

i'm glad i have online friends. you guys are the best <3

♥ Zahidah

20050302

Headache-d :|

damn ah. i've been having headaches these past few days. sometimes my forehead feels hot, like just now.and i have a sore throat. ughhh. i think it must be the rain last sat. haiz.

omgah i love anthony and that last guy who sang... the rocker, babyy. hahaha. anthony is better than clay aiken lah. serious. and that rocker was just "woahhh". haha. i think this season is the best among all the other american idol seasons.

anyway, had no np today. heh. so um... went to parkway wif sab, khai, ezza, rai and bahiah.

so yah that's all i guess. boringggg.

♥ Zahidah

20050301

No NPCC parade tomorrow for Kamikazeans.

phew just sms the whole of kamikaze about tomorrow. yay, there's no parade tomorrow, meaning that i can go home early and loiter around malls! wheeeee. good luck though to the sec 3s and 4s for their promo tests. all the best yeah. :) and yes kamikazeans, you have to bring money for the pt-kit that you ordered. $9.50 for the np tee and $10 for the slacks each. so i guess i'll have to ask my dad for $9.50. hmm yeah. those new pt-kits are for the np camps we're going to have this year - annual tkgsnpcc camp and atc! can't wait. very excited lah. hahaha.

anyways. after school, we had another cheerleading practice lah. haiyohz. we're so slow sia. compared to other classes. and we only have just started on the beginning of the cheer. and our cheer damn short. haiz. the choreography also not exactly good ah. and my mom haven't finish making the skirts. haizzzzzz.

went home with ezza, bahiah, rai, huda and sab in bus 31 while aisha, nad and nadh took bus 10. i think i like 31 more now cos i can sleep longerrr. hahaha. yes yes i know i'm a sleepyhead and i guess i'm known for that. heh.

ohhh i saw some people who has friendster accounts with pics of themselves in real life. haha. not tt they know me lah but i recognise their faces. haha cool right.

yay, just finished burning cd for rai. say thank you, rai. :)

alahhh on second thought, i want np tomorrow! haha. np = hell lots of fun though it sucks at time. heh.

♥ Zahidah